I keep thinking about what happens to my wife, Bess, after I die; there’s a recurrent image in my mind, about what happens to her after I’m gone, that I can’t seem to shake. Bess …| The Story's Story
If you find this piece worthwhile, consider the Go Fund Me that’s funding ongoing cancer care. Alex Tabarrok writes about how “when the FDA fails to approve a good drug, people die but the bo…| The Story's Story
This is by my brother, Sam. I arrived to Arizona late Saturday, after learning that my brother has only a few days left before cancer ends him. Jake’s wife, Bess, confessed that she had neither the…| The Story's Story
I’m entering hospice. It’s time, and realistically past time. The squamous cell carcinoma tumors are growing, and the two doses of spot radiation I got on June 10 and 12 have utterly destroyed what…| The Story's Story
In which I analyse the Lumina data and have to face the inner conflict of supporting self-experimentation but also wanting actual trial data| www.writingruxandrabio.com
Some things about the clinical trial process—and the behaviors of the drug companies, hospitals, and oncologists that are part of the clinical trial process—puzzle me, because I notice problems and…| The Story's Story
I’ll admit a disappointing answer up front: I don’t know. Because I’m dying, I’ve been saying goodbye a lot, but even after a bunch of practice I still don’t know how …| The Story's Story
My wife, Bess, wrote this. For more context, see “I am dying of squamous cell carcinoma, and the treatments that might save me are just out of reach.” Jake is sitting on the couch besid…| The Story's Story
I stand on the scale and it flashes 137.8 lbs, which elicits cursing because 137.8 lbs is dangerously low and I’ve been trying, futilely, to gain. Though I’m dying at an accelerated rat…| The Story's Story
After he dies, my husband wants me to not just survive, but thrive| bessstillman.substack.com
This essay is by my wife, Bess. “Are you taking care of yourself?” Francesca asks. It’s a fair question: my husband, Jake, is dying of a metastasizing squamous cell carcinoma. I say I don’t know wh…| The Story's Story