Contrary to reported by many media, I did not say I felt 'lost' over my life's work. I explain here my own inner searching regarding the potential horror of catastrophes following our progress in AI and tie it to a possible understanding of the pronounced disagreements among top AI researchers about major AI risks, particularly the existential ones. We disagree strongly despite being generally rational colleagues that share humanist values: how is that possible? I will argue that we need more...
