I've been on a rabbit hole to learn more about the human memory after watching college kids perform seemingly impossible memory feats on a tv variety show. It has made me reflect on my own poor working memory. A few years ago I attended a bicycle building class: I struggled badly with remembering the instructions...| Winnie Lim
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[tw warning: suicide ideation] Yesterday I had another episode where I spent hours crying. This actually feels embarrassing to write, but intellectually I think it is society that conditions us to think that crying is embarrassing. I also feel like it seems wrong to keep writing posts about my sadness, but why is this so?...| Winnie Lim
After thinking about it for more than three years, I've finally signed up for personal training so I can learn how to strength-train. We start to have muscle loss as we age: Muscle mass decreases approximately 3–8% per decade after the age of 30 and this rate of decline is even higher after the age...| Winnie Lim
Wanted to write a note but I guess this warrants a proper post since I've completed my main aspiration for 2024! Today while trying our home pull-up bar I realised I could lift myself halfway without a resistance band, so I called my partner over to take a progress video. I made another attempt while...| Winnie Lim
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I don’t know if people know this, but I used to be extremely sedentary and I hated any form of physical activity. Only upon hindsight I realised it was probably related to a combination of factors which included adhd, depression and diet. Back then, I didn’t know that activity breeds energy. So the less active...| Winnie Lim
as we get older, grouchier, crankier and more creaky it is admittedly getting harder and harder to get out there and have fun together. “fun” is such a strange word for me...| Winnie Lim
The past few weeks I haven’t been recovering well from my exercise. I thought it was perimenopause or something, but upon examining my journal entries I could trace it back to one...| Winnie Lim
Everyone seems to know that exercise makes us healthier but I think it is still an abstract concept to most people. It is still being associated with aesthetic value – looking lean, and there are more important things in life than to look lean. Not everybody is interested to test the limits of their body,...| Winnie Lim
One of my all-time favourite games is stardew valley. I don't actually play a lot of games, partially because they trigger migraines and motion sickness for me, and partially because a combination of adhd and terrible motor-skills make me bad at playing them. However stardew valley was relatively simple as a 2D pixel art game...| Winnie Lim
Being covid cautious is a very socially-isolating endeavour. Most people think we have some psychological disorder, and that's putting it very nicely. I feel alone and lonely for continuously writing about this, since this is a topic that is not being acknowledged by most bloggers. I am used to writing about socially-isolating and taboo topics....| Winnie Lim
Today while reviewing posts I’d made “on this day” in previous years, I stumbled upon a post on reading my old livejournal entries and how it made me feel. In it I...| Winnie Lim
This past week my partner fell sick — not covid as far as we know (we tested) but it seems like a more severe flareup of her MCAS. She hasn’t been this...| Winnie Lim
I was supposed to do a dental crown after I was finally done with my root canal in may, but as usual I procrastinated plus we travelled for a bit in july...| Winnie Lim
ecently unexpectedly she started going to the gym with me — at first she wasn’t sure if she could really commit to it because to avoid crowds we have to go to the gym really early in the morning and she loves her sleep. But she did it anyway, and for the first time this...| Winnie Lim
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Recently I chanced upon a tweet stating that highly sensitive persons (HSPs) are basically autistic without admitting it. It surprised me, since the traits of HSPs as I know it seem to be the opposite of stereotypical autistic traits. A couple of decades ago I identified as a HSP, but I somewhat grew out of it before...| Winnie Lim
as we get older we tend to be more conservative in terms of the things we would attempt to do, so our world gradually shrinks because we tend to stay in our safe and comfortable zone, experiencing less and less as we prefer the sameness of our routines. but for this trip i deliberately wanted to break out: haven't drove in a foreign country since 2019 but we wanted to experience something different. am glad we did so, and i love that she supports my weird endeavours even though she tends to b...| Winnie Lim
Yesterday I watched a video interview with Kristen Kish, whom I discovered via Iron Chef. Apparently her mentor put her up to compete in Top Chef – she was reluctant to, but her mentor said that there needs to be representation of women chefs on tv. I found myself nodding vehemently along with that remark,...| Winnie Lim
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the latency of eink is slower so there is always a slight lag when drawing, and due to the inherent nature of the technology it can be frustrating to draw with, but...| Winnie Lim
The Airfanta 3 pro is a corsi-rosenthal-style air purifier that is sold commercially and has an impressive CADR (clean air delivery rate). It is also relatively affordable compared to air purifiers with equivalent CADR. Most importantly, it is collapsible so it can be packed into a luggage, backpack or bag. I brought its sibling the...| Winnie Lim
The time I spent in Khao Yai was one of the most freeing periods I had felt since 2020. Being known for its national park, the qualities of the place makes it very ideal for covid cautiousness especially in low season as most places are open-air and spacious. Fortunately or unfortunately, a car is required...| Winnie Lim
when i was into bicycles she would accompany me to see bicycles, she would even accompany me to computer malls in various cities around the world even though she has zero interest. i think the world is always trying to deaden us, so any attempt to nurture aliveness should be applauded. she, has brought more life to me than anyone or anything else; she, encouraged my adhd-switching of hobbies, never frustrated with me when I lose interest in things rapidly; she, who would cover my ears when pl...| Winnie Lim
I still feel afflicted by my mind in many ways. I try to focus on the present, and distract myself by trying to live life in my fullest possible manner, but once in while I still notice that sinking feeling that has plagued me since I have known consciousness. Intellectually I know it is just...| Winnie Lim
Last year around this time I had my first strength training session with a personal trainer. I had only 3 sessions with them, but due to a fundamental incompatibility – they had issues with me wearing a mask – I decided not to renew the contract. It was difficult getting another trainer at the same...| Winnie Lim
Khao Yai is about 2 - 3 hours drive from bangkok airport. For the past few years we usually go to places where we don't have to drive because I tend to find driving stressful. But this limits our travel options since places that have good transport infrastructure are typically heavily populated cities. The last...| Winnie Lim
My interest in playing board games got reignited after watching some korean tv puzzle shows. After few days of playing board games my partner was reminded that life is like playing a game (or rather games are designed to be based on life): most of us have some particular outcome we want out of life...| Winnie Lim
We started watching korean variety shows since they started appearing on Netflix. I think it started with Physical 100 which gave me the push I needed to get started on my own strength training journey. Physical 100's participants were widely varied so they feel more relatable compared to professional athletes. It was mind-opening to see...| Winnie Lim
I first came across this term when I was browsing the subreddits for adhd and autistic women. After reading more about it I realised belatedly (in my 40s) that I have been coping with this my entire life. Strangely just finding a name to something formerly ambiguous can bring so much clarity and comfort, along...| Winnie Lim
“I have no answers for anything these days. I’m trying to write down details. Remembering. Looking. I’m trying to keep my bearings in the forest of the world as it is now. I’m noting rhythms, I’m trying to catch the wave in my mind, I’m checking my sources.”– Transactions with beauty I relate so much...| Winnie Lim
I guess reading this post is timely for me because I tend to go into bouts of frustrating boredom. But a state of extreme boredom is essential to creativity, according to Craig Mod: When I’m not talking, just walking (which is most of the time), I try to cultivate the most bored state of mind...| Winnie Lim
I'm currently reading Humanely Possible by Sarah Blakewell – I liked her previous two books so it wasn't too difficult to pick this one up as well. She devoted quite a few pages about Petrarch. He liked collecting books, except that back then the printing press didn't exist, so he has to manually copy every...| Winnie Lim
I've been manually entering twitter and facebook statuses into obsidian for a long while now, because it is meaningful to review them and reflect on the chasm between my past selves and current self. These social networks are like a black hole, once we publish them we're likely never to see them again unless we...| Winnie Lim
The last time we've been to taiwan was in 2018, just a couple years fresh into our relationship. 7 years later we're both radically different people with different interests: back then she was not into fabric art, and I did not have a camera. I try not to be intrusive and take quick snaps, but...| Winnie Lim
I don't have fond feelings for hackernews, but since this blog never ever gets on hackernews due to its subject matter I thought it was objectively a novel phenomenon that it was on the front page for a day or so about a month ago: I can't help but wonder who submitted it in the...| Winnie Lim
It is so easy to take for granted, the ease of a relationship that has lasted 106 months. That is almost 9 years, a little less than a quarter of my life. Our existences are so ingrained into each other's lives that we cannot imagine how else we would exist otherwise. I have never thought...| Winnie Lim
Our current minister of defence had made a public speech last week, stating that the US's image has "changed from liberator to great disruptor to a landlord seeking rent." Considering that Singapore has traditionally tried to stay as politically neutral and ambiguous as possible, it feels like some tide has turned. This is on top...| Winnie Lim
she made “matching” clothes for us again! they are basically using the same base fabric, but how they turned out is representative of our personalities. i just want something minimal but still with enough design elements, she just goes for maximalism. we’ve been using the same pattern for all of the shirts she has made for me because i tend to stick to something once i really like it, because i am such a grinch it is actually rare for me to like anything. whereas all her clothes are rad...| Winnie Lim
I was quite vain when I was younger due to a low self-esteem which led to a high level of insecurity. That insecurity made me feel ugly and that I was never enough, so I felt like I had to work harder just to meet the minimal standards required to exist. One of the ways...| Winnie Lim
I am still recovering from my failed root canal (and still have one visit to complete the procedure), so I have been hesitant in taking up my regular exercise again because I don't want to distract my immune system from my tooth's healing. So when I went to the gym today for the first time...| Winnie Lim
Lately I am trying to have more compassion for myself, but it has been a struggle. I tell myself just like I wouldn’t expect someone without a leg to run a marathon, I shouldn’t expect myself to function like a normal human being because my brain is dysfunctional. I can’t tell how much of my...| Winnie Lim
There may be a misconception that all covid cautious people are the same, but it is pretty wide spectrum. Some covid cautious people may frown upon my behaviour because I still travel and I mostly don't mask outdoors when it is not crowded, whereas people who are not covid cautious may think I am a...| Winnie Lim
Travel enriches me in many ways. Apart from novelty and discovery, new surroundings help me to temporarily forget things that usually weigh me down. Certain familiar things back home trigger uncomfortable feelings in me. I guess that is why I had a multi-year respite when I moved to SF for a while. For that few...| Winnie Lim
