i tried laying back in bed to make attempts at ceasing the intrusive thoughts but they wouldn’t stop, so i decided to write. i’m writing whatever comes out, so it may seem incoherent. The last time i called this hotline, it was a different number, but it was changed to make it more memorable for […]| things i've been knowing…
i don’t normally celebrate birthdays, as to me, every day is a birth day. When you wake up to a new day, it’s a whole set of new experiences, and ruminations on older ones. We are never the same person we were the day before. That said, today is a day where my life undoubtedly […]| things i've been knowing…
It has been a little over a year since i both got hit by a truck and became an amputee; and while there are things i already knew regarding the ableism of the world many of us live in… there is one thing to know that in theory, and another thing to see it in […]| things i've been knowing…
(Warning: This writing has mention of suicide and self-harm) Not being able to name feelings didn’t make a lot of sense to me until yesterday. i mean, there’s lots of feelings i’ve experienced- joy, sadness, dread… So why would any other feeling not be named? Now i understand. i’ve had this dull, throbbing pain in […]| things i've been knowing…
i woke up today, feeling extremely heavy; this weight of doubt, guilt, acceptance have all combined. i sprung right up, wondering if i’m doing the right thing. i sat up wondering if she is okay with all of this- how much pain is she in? i look over and see her, and a wave of […]| things i've been knowing…
the winter months are approaching; as it gets darker out earlier, i do my best to prepare myself mentally. it could be anything from taking extra vitamin d, to intentionally eating healthier. one thing that makes me warm-hearted is spending time with my dear cat friend, lumbia. when i curl up to rest she’s right […]| things i've been knowing…
i’ve become so much more accepting of the fact that certain pieces of music speak to me at a certain time for a reason. i have so-called ‘songs of the week’ which stay with me for anytime from a week to a month. this is what they are- for now: i recall the days growing […]| things i've been knowing…
i do my best to listen to the universe’s lessons; i do admit there are times i fall into the trap of reverting to a sense of finality based on my feelings of the current state of what’s…| things i've been knowing...
i’ve cried so much these past few weeks, but right now i am crying in the ways i did when i was lying in the hospital bed after i got hit by a truck, in immense pain. My heart is in so much p…| things i've been knowing...
